i'm sorry.

sorry for being pathetic.
sorry for wasting your time.
sorry for bothering you.
sorry for thinking about you.
sorry for worrying about you.
sorry for caring about you.
sorry for wanting to be there for you.

sorry for loving you.

yet no matter how many times i say i'm sorry, it wouldn't matter. why should it? when i don't even mean it. i'm not sorry for those things.

i'm only sorry that you still matter so much to me.
i'm only sorry that i still love you.
-tbc-

(the above was brought to you courtesy of a fiction story i was and still am writing. stupid thing started out as something i wanted to express a year ago. trouble was that it spawned many many more chapters. what can i say? i'm a sucker for good reviews)

feeling depressed. i think it's because of this massive headache i'm having now.

i need chocolate
i need to get artifically high.

i rule. finished Onimusha. 15 hours! whoohoo. at first when i finished off Nobunaga, i thought i had won. then i found out that i still had the Golden Demon Lord boss battle to complete. okay, what the heck. i almost died there. but it rocked.

then, i had to go to school. i actually finished it way before i expected to. woke up at 6.50 on friday. everyone was rushing to get ready. Cheryl was so pissed off with dad cos he actually went to bathe. she was going:"what the hell!!!!" then i got out of the house and ran to flag a taxi down. reached school with 5 mins to spare. had a half day because of the Hockey girls.

i somehow feel that there is hope for our pw project.
didn't know what to do after the pw thing so followed Quek home. watched shrek with her. and had quite a nice time.

went to NJ concert with YY then went out with Annabelle, Amanda, Audrey, Ming, Linda. went to Pizza Hut. it was quite funny.

college clean up today. and then piano. what the... i wasn't very happy about going for piano because we were supposed to go watch troy after the cleaning. but in the end, the people didn't go. but still. really want to watch.

Fang Yang told me to go type Wee Chin's name into the Google search box. oh my god. didn't know Mr Professional Sailor was so... pro (for lack of a better word) and in his interviews, he sounded awfully matured. is this really Keith's master??? haha. it is. then for the heck of it, i typed in my name. and there was actually something. because of the President Guide's Award. if not, sure dun have.

i need new shoes

i also found out that my sister is crazy. (from her blog)

so far it's been 10 hours and counting. i was up all night playing Onimusha. couldn't open my eyes in the morning. throughout the whole assembly i was fighting to keep awake. kept mumbling on and on. i couldn't even understand myself. safe to say no one understood me either. kept my eyes partially open during GP. Edna Tan knew i was very tired, or maybe she thought i looked very sick, so she didn't call on me to answer any compre questions. very good. though i knew i deserved it. i had less than half an hour's sleep, so it was kinda expected. but i woke up just after GP ended. and then there was maths. fun.

had a half day, which ended at 10.35 cos of soccer. we ended at 10 because we finished the vectors tutorial earlier. very cool. went to watch Shrek 2 at cine. it was pretty funny. i liked all those movie references. puss in boots was sooo cute. antonio banderas is a genius. he gives me a very sauve impression. loved him in Interview with a Vampire. and Donkey always cracks me up. loved the "mutant" donkey/dragon children he had. they were so adorable.

when to delta sports complex to watch the finals for Girls Hockey. against RJ. Fariza and Wei Ling (from our senior class) were really good. we won 1-0. screamed like mad. i didn't realise how school spirity i was until vj. or maybe it's because vj IS so spirit based.

another thing. i think i'll be much faster in Onimusha if i didn't get calls from my friends at the wrong time. don't get me wrong, i love talking to my friends. but wrong timing... then there's this frantic saving of the game, the cursing when i'm trying to finish off the bosses. but it's all cool. i don't mind calls. and i was so pissed when i couldn't defeat Gogandantisu the first time. know why? cos no one does the first time. or something like that. i checked it out. whatever. just finished kicking his ass. ha! i need help when i'm getting to the end. allies allies. i need to go bribe more people!

i think i'm getting blisters on my fingers. pain pain pain. but it's worth it!

pw book "for men only" to read.

onimusha: samurai's destiny to finish by friday. (yes! thanks Daniel)i will be glued to the PS2 until friday. shall not sleep much. i will complete it in less than 20 hours.

vj soccer won sa 4 to 1. whee! national champs.

nj concert thing on friday. YY!

basically, that's about it. cept i'm very tired. but will still go play PS2.

that bottom post was just pissing me off. anyway, tmr's Quek's birthday and i love her. that sounds kinda les but i don't care. whatever. feel very defient now.

want to watch shrek 2, troy, van helsing, and harry potter. can you believe that i haven't gone to the movies since feb? such a loser. no la, just lack of time. that's all. especially now since i rediscovered my love for PS2.

i miss my friends. i need a hug. and i found out that green contacts scare people. or maybe the word isn't scare, it's more of a shock. but after the initial shock wears off, everyone starts going, "coooool."

by now you should have guessed that i wore green contacts after i came back home. not sure if i can wear them to school. so i shall not. in the holidays then i wear again. whee.

some times some people are just full of shit. really really disgusted by the actions of those people. i find that in this world, or anywhere else for that matter, love is really hard to find. friendship is hard to find as well. so why can't people understand that?

i've said it before and i'll say it again. it's not nice to play with people's feelings. i have a friend, whose girl cheated on him. she wasn't even sorry or regretful. i was there when he saw her with another guy. the hurt on his face... i wish i could have said something to make him feel better. but i couldn't. all i could do was stand beside him and watch the person he thought he loved with another. when she saw him, she walked over and told him that she wanted to break up. and she looked at me and said very nastily (to him):"i never loved you anyway." and that was the worst thing a person could have said. surely there must have been some sort of feeling for him? and to say such a cruel thing, especially in front of me and the new sucker she had found. needless to say, i felt some sort of vindictive pleasure in watching my friend tell her that she was a stinking two-timer, a spendthrift and a big time flirt and he was better off without her. he even told the new guy:"better watch your back. a person who can cheat on her boyfriend can easily cheat on her new boyfriend." i was quite proud of the way he handled the situation. but when we walked away, he looked a little crushed.

but truth be told, he knew they were having problems. more than once had he voiced his fear that she was only with him because he was older (20) and was working. you know the whole status thing and the money thing. i never met her since he only started dating her 3 months ago. he felt surprisingly okay after we walked to the bus stop. i guess we both knew that yes, feelings had been hurt, but the fact that he wasn't devastated/going to commit suicide meant that his feelings for her hadn't developed until the very crucial "i love you so much i could die for you" stage. and we were glad about that. at least he had found out before it had gotten so much worse.

so why? why can't people just not play around? it's cruel. but life isn't very fair, neither is it a bed of roses. actually, it is a bed of roses in a way, since roses have thorns, but that's not the point. it's saddening that love has become so hurting. i'm not generalizing but it's very terrible to find out that the other party wasn't faithful.

just like it takes two hands to clap, it needs both parties commitment to their relationship for anything to work. one may be willing, while the other isn't. problems shouldn't be swept under the carpet. if you really love the person, you should try. but there shouldn't be force involved.

i think i know better than anyone else how much love can hurt.
but i also know that love is uplifting and all those other qualities. it doesn't take a genius to figure out that it is the people who make the difference in love being hurtful or just plain wonderful.

if only wishes came true.

{-when you say you love me-} -->how apt that i'm listening to this clay aiken song.

okay, had the UN seminar thing yesterday at Meritus Mandarin. it was quite okay i guess. a little bit boring when the speakers or the topic they were speaking about wasn't exactly stellar, but other than that, some of the things about the UN were quite interesting. but it was really awfully cold. when we were having the talks it wasn't so bad, but hoo boy, when we went out for tea break or lunch or whatever, it was just freezing! perhaps people thought that with the weather being so horridly hot outside, there was a need to make sure we didn't burn to death. so they decided to freeze us to death. well done.

in case anyone's wondering, the tie didn't choke me to death. hence, i am still alive to type this in. it nearly did though. i should learn to tie that stupid piece of cloth.

Gladys called me and told me that she and Renny got through the first PGA round. i was so happy. but then again, it wasn't unexpected. still... hopefully it'll be smooth sailing for them in the later rounds.

walked around hougang mall trying to find the Shrek vcd. couldn't find it. was freaking pissed off. until i went to Game 1 and saw they had Onimusha 3. the guy at the counter was demonstrating it to some people and i just stood there for a while to watch. then, since i was the only girl there, he asked me if i wanted to have a shot at the training. oh my lord. the CG was great and it was totally awesome. except that i could only get pass the first training and then i got my butt totally whipped. but i knew i had to get it. only problem was the cash thing and that i don't own a PS2. it'll only be worth it if i had a PS2. but this situation has occurred before. there was also a time when i was debating whether to buy Onimusha: Warlords and King of Fighters'02. in the end, i did. after all, one does have the thing called friends who are willing to lend the use of the PS2 to you if you ask nicely and urm, beg.

but i still wasn't entirely sure. after all, Onimusha 3 was like a fairly new release. (new enough that the cheats for the game hasn't come out online, not that i use cheats but i use them as a gauge of how new the game is) new games are, duh, more expensive. should wait for the price to drop a little.

went home and then after watching tv for a while, (me was being a uberslacker on saturday), went to search again for the shrek vcd. finally found it way back in the cupboard. then i messaged Quek to tell her she could have fun with her gingerbread man. and she went:"You make it sound so... but thanks" or something to that effect. then i went:"I'm like really innocent and hail me." then she replied:" Hail you my foot, be it subtle or not, you're not that innocent. but since you're lending me the vcd, better hail you." yay.

we're all not that innocent

went online and Keith talked to me because he was bored. what am i? some form of entertainment? no la. quite funny. discussed er, the innocence of people. that should about cover the whole conversation.

still thinking about Onimusha. was trying to rack my brains for someone who played PS2 like a maniac. er, avid fan. messaged my cousin for his opinion but he didn't play it. messaged my "PS2 lenders" but i knew they didn't play it. (everytime i played Onimusha 1, they went, "this game isn't my cup of tea." which frankly shows that they have little class). then i remembered that Daniel remarked once in his letters that he was king/master of PS2. so i messaged him. must buy, he said. still... anyway, on the good side is that i found someone who played it! and yay, he'll be lending me Onimusha 2 soon. cos i haven't played it. i can foresee many happy hours at my friend's place trying to complete the game before the holidays start.

this is an extremely long post for a day description.

Life is an eternal maze and death is the only exit.

my sister told me that once. it's even on her blog. and i believe it. i think that we're continuously running a race in life. and the end point is someplace hidden from common sight. anyway, how do we know that we've reached the end? how indeed? when we collapse and die? hopefully not.

another day, another story. the weather is still pissing me off.

i want to spend a whole day slacking. just sitting on the sand while the waves crash in with my closest friends and just enjoying the day. just stoning really. when one ceases to think, it may actually be more enjoyable than anything else.

people's birthdays are coming up and i need money. Gladys has already started her hinting. mum's leaving for Italy on 26 May and coming back 3 June. ha. one day is Quek's birthday and another is my dear Gladys's day. so coincidental

serious amount of work that i need to start cracking on. feel like the pile of work is an egg. bleah. ran today. feel so disappointed. didn't run in 9 freaking days. history tests and homework piling up. but i think i was just making excuses. it felt really good running today, but i think i could have gone on longer. instead i chose to stop. nvm, shall run again tomorrow.

what can i say about this day? okay, GP test. Singlish is my favourite language. RIGHT. had math where my brain was bogged down by mind-blowing facts of vectors. whee. didn't really understand everything. was distracted by Wee Chin and Keith, (lucky me was sitting between them, or was it unlucky? haha). you know what those 2 people are like. oh! and Jian Yong made a funny comment. there was this vector that was represented by V. then JY said:"OOH... lots of Vs. i like Vs." even if it wasn't that funny here, it certainly was funny then. so lame. i really wish i was as innocent as i was in primary school. then my brain wouldn't feel so screwed all the time. had a lovely 3 period break after that. history where i got back my Cuban essay, 18/25. happy happy happy. then almost fell asleep. maths tutorial, with trigo. wonderful. then it was off to Yishun for a lovely lovely piano lesson. (please note the sarcasm)

comparatively, today was much better. only 6 more school days to the end of school. me and YY going to watch a piano concerto on 5 June. i miss her. i miss Sonya as well. hope she does great against AC in the debates on saturday. i'll be attending a UN seminar on that day, wearing the VJ tie for almost a whole day. death by strangling. i dunno how guys can survive. *salutes*

good luck to my dear Gladys and Renny in the PGA interview. i know you guys know your stuff and will be more than prepared.

i wonder why i'm narrating my days more and more. maybe i just feel like complaining.

to "pumpkin": please tell me who you are. i'm not really keen on the idea that you know who i am but i don't know who you are. thanks.

this whole week (or so that i've had) had been a totally crapped up, screwed up, f-ed up week. there was good stuff and bad stuff. but did it have to come one after another immediately? couldn't there have been an f-ing breather? of course not. really really agitated by this whole 3 days of school. it was so perfect that i absolutely would love it if the rest of my school days were like that. how... wonderful that would be. a.b.s.o.l.u.t.e.l.y. w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l

i find myself questioning why i do certain things that i do. and i can't come up with any answers. the heat these days gives me a churning feeling in my gut. the blood's boiling around like nobody's business. i feel like taking my fist and smashing it into anyone's face. anyone interested in letting me have a go at your face is more than welcome. interested applicants can leave a note on my tagboard. haha. jk. jk. but still...

i need an avenue for whatever repressed anger i have inside before it blows up. now we don't want that to happen. but the chain of events that happened are contributing quite a lot. i don't want someone to be on the receiving end of my outburst.

because i care about what i say
because i care about how you guys will feel
because i know that what i say may not be true
because i know that it will hurt no matter if it is true or not
because i know that my actions and words matter
because i know that i'm not an unreasonable person

some things are easier said than done.
some things are better left alone.
some things are just what destiny intended for us.

some times i really talk rubbish.

i don't believe in destiny. i don't believe in letting someone dictate the way i live my life. everyone makes their own choices. and i really don't know what to think anymore.

at the end of the day, i should be asking myself this: is it worth it?

if i say yes without thinking, then i'm either stupid or have gone insane.
if i say no without thinking, then i'm wasting my time.
if i say nothing and think, then i'll be confusing myself even more.

that's why i'm doing nothing. that's why i'm trying not to think. that's why i didn't even ask the question.

-no more deep thinking. just posting my day now-
Quek didn't come to school today and Li Hui had to leave before our pw period. so that left me and the 2 guys. so i decided to try to finish the 3rd proposal before Li Hui left. unfortunately, things didn't go as smoothly as i wanted it to. sometimes pw just irritates me, but that doesn't mean i'm pissed off or really really (to the power of infinity) hyped up. i hate it when people tell me to relax and chill. even the words calm down get me more irritated and more likely to raise my voice. it's just me. but i don't like people doing that. it just screws my whole emotional state. ... because i was already irritated enough. no need to make it a bloodbath.

then i went back to SN with Wei Min. and crapped around. went a little nuts. how not to when all those cuckoos are around? Renny, Sam, Alison, Feng Ru, Clarissa... ya, i know when to let lose to have fun, it WAS fun. that's why i love going back to meet those people. they really bring a smile to my face no matter how bad i was feeling earlier. i asked them about their physics test and it was damn funny talking about it. i really thank God that i have really good friends. *smiles*

it's freaky how my mood can change so fast. but it makes life interesting.

{-Walk Away-}

currently feeling very irritated and very pissed off at my naivete. some people, aka me, are blind. it's just like in the merchant's tale, when those who have eyes to see choose NOT to see, they are the ones that are truly blind. yes, i have eyes, but i chose not to see. and now? i cannot HELP but see. and it's a very clear picture. i resolve not to think about this issue anymore than i have to. which brings me back to...

the optimist.
either a person with so much faith in the world, or someone who isn't open to the idea of "reality"
(if people are smart, they'll figure out that my mood isn't wonderfully optimistic. i don't think it'll ever be. not after this.)


i can still feel your arms around me.

i miss the times we had
i miss the memories we shared
i miss the little things
i miss what could have been
i miss your laughter and tears
i miss listening to your hopes, dreams and fears

i miss you.

everyday brings new surprises or shocks. whatever you may choose to call it. depends on it being a negative or a positive thing. sometimes i think i should be clearer on what exactly i want. reading in between the lines isn't always the best thing to do. but it's my nature to assume the worst. it's always better to be prepared for the bad than unprepared. i really am being stupid here. and it's enough to kill me. i wish i can laugh at my stupidity but i can't. because i'm left holding all the broken pieces.

i hate trying but never succeeding. i hate putting in the effort and receiving nothing in return. i hate that whatever i do, to the best of my abilities, sometimes isn't enough. i hate that it comes easily to others but not to me. one day i'll stop trying.

and the windows that were wide open slammed shut.

still, they opened once in a while.

when the thing called hope flew in.

but it never stayed for long.

this is worrying me. as time goes on, i find that i'm making more and more excuses for myself. it's not the lack of time, though i certainly need to further solidify the whole "time management" concept. it's something else.

laziness perhaps? and i don't want it to be that way. there are a lot of things i don't want, but i get/have to deal with them. the very things i DO want, i seldom get. it's the reality of life i guess.

back to my previous point

as time goes on, i look back on the "journey of life" that i've embarked on, and i realised that i've had good and bad experiences. who hasn't? and friends make up alot of those particular experiences.

i don't want to lose friendships, i want to renew them. there's a lot of good memories to be had. so what happened? why did we drift apart? it wasn't the distance. some friendships i have now didn't fall apart because of distance. perhaps for some i merely made more effort to keep in touch than i did others.

and still, i feel some ounce of guilt at the thought of the good friends i made but didn't keep in contact with. were they waiting for me to call them? who makes the first move? i think the smart move is to prioritize. who's important in our lives and who's not. those that are important keep in contact naturally. conversations aren't stilted or false. even after many years, when you meet up, they must be people you can instantly connect with. those are the ones who are worth your time and effort to continue a friendship with.

others are merely aquintances. people who had a share in your life's journey. but it was just a minor share. they walked on with their own lives and didn't really tie into yours. there shouldn't be guilt at lack of contact because they probably felt that i didn't play that big a part in their lives as well.

in the end, the people who stick with you through thick and thin are the ones who truly matters. others were just there at that moment.

feeling vaguely depressed again. there's this sense of unfulfilment in my life that i cant pinpoint. it's just there. like a silent lurker if you know what i mean. these past few days have been hectic, with me trying to complete my history essay on saturday night and doing my lit and gp assignment just now. i can feel myself feeling sick from the stress of it all.

actually, i think i AM sick. been sniffling and blowing my nose to pieces. trust me, not a fun thing to do. i think i wiped out our tissue paper supply. great. what's going to happen to me if i need to use tissue paper the next time? toilet paper? that's actually a pretty good idea.

was blogging in school on friday but since it felt so weird, i decided not to post it. just switched my stuff around some. we had pizza. edna tan gave us a treat, which was really nice of her. then we had to do project work. i really think pw is screwing up our lives. she helped us narrow down our scope and i think our proposal is pretty much okay. at least it's clearer now. stayed back till quite late with Li Hui and Quek to finish it. basically, friday was pretty okay. i don't wanna go back to school on monday. i think we have 2 history tests in the next week. my brain will explode trying to memorise stuff. pootie.

fun filled day of being chucked back into the daily grind, no, torture that the government calls school. call it by that harmless name and no one will really know that "school" is the codename for "jail", "prison", "nuthouse", "epitome of evil". but i'm onto their scheme. they can't fool me! i'm too smart for that. so why am i still stuck clinging on to the threads of that system?

because you can run but you can't hide.

still, thank the Lord tuesday is over. one heck of a long day.
had a wonderful enriching day of learning. in one ear and out the other.
i proudly proclaim to the world that i love econs! (as if anyone will EVER believe that)

i also found out today that caffeine really screws up my system. i get too hyper for words. i knew i shouldn't have tried to kick the caffeine habit. it's just like a drug addiction you know. once you've stopped for a long time and you suddenly start it again, the effect it produces is infinitely worse than if you had been drinking it all along.
brr... i feel cold.

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	8 1/2
your best quality is	you give friends great advice
your worst quality is	you get pissed off alot
this is because	of who you are inside
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

What is Your Destiny? by Valcion
Name
Color
Birthday
Destiny	Enslaver of all humanity
Date when you fufill your destiny	May 20, 2014
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

ooh.... i rock.

stole these questions from TzeQi's blog who got it from Cach

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"but that other lovely possibilty of real revelation and disaster, ...well, that added a hell a lot of spice!" -Introduction to "the vampire lestat"

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
econs notes. yick.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
unbeatables III

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
930pm

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
923pm

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
savage garden's "i don't know you anymore"

7: When did you last step outside? What were you doing?:
going to church. it was just this morning

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
friend's blog

9: What are you wearing?:
a shirt. duh. and shorts. and my ring. it sparkles!

10: Did you dream last night?:
yes. i dreamt that i was sitting at the beach.

11: When did you last laugh?:
i smiled when Sonya came online.

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
an article on "what is success"

14(a): What book are you currently reading?:
"The vampire lestat"

14(b): What is the last book you finished?:
Fatal seductions II

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
my silver lancer convertible.

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
i write with my left hand. ha. people always ask me "you're a left hander?" whenever they see me do so.

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would it be?
vj would be right next to my house.

19: Do you like to dance?:
if it's with the right people.

20: What is the last thing you ate or drank?
kit kat chunky!

21(a): Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
faith

21(b): Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
damon

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
no, i love singapore.

my one true love... is you.

still wondering. still trying. still going to be screwed anyway. still wondering why i'm caring so much.

i feel so down. just depressed.

"For he is the living God
and he endures forever
his kingdom will never be destroyed
his dominance will never end
He rescues and he saves
he performs signs and wonders
in the heaven and on the earth."

-Daniel 6:26, 27

Just finished reading the book of Daniel. now on to the book of Hosea. must remind myself to write the reflection for Daniel if not i'll forget the message for doing so. hopefully, i'll get to the new testament soon. trying to read the whole book but sometimes i can only do 10 verses or so since they're quite good to reflect on. it really feels me with awe everytime i read about the faith the people had in the Lord. it takes a lot to believe without seeing, and i hope that i'll be as strong in my faith as they were. but sometimes it's very hard to do so. then again, no one said it was easy. one has to face their problems and deal with them before it can be said that you've succeeded. running away never solves much.

gah. i think i'm trying to kill myself or something. you know the vampire chronicles? which started with the "interview with the vampire"? followed by "the vampire lestat"? which was then followed by "queen of the damned" and then "the tale of the body thief" and "memnoch the devil"? blah blah blah.

i have the first 5 except for tale of the body thief. but guess how many i've actually finished? two. queen of the damned was rerererereread. if there is such a word. haha. no such thing. i made it up! memnoch was read once. interview and vampire lestat was started but not completed. and then i decided to go ahead and buy memnoch the devil. i also managed to get "blood and gold" for a cheap cheap price. got them today. so that means i have 4 books to complete.

while i love anne rice and her dark philosophy, sometimes i don't understand what she's writing about. it's just too... thinking for me. i'm going to spend the rest of monday and the week on "the vampire lestat". god, i love that man. i WILL finish the book.

remember how obsessed i was with the vampire chronicles? how i went from one end of singapore to the next just to find the vcd for "interview with the vampire"? that was last year in august. stupid vcd was so hard to find since it was produced in 1994! haha, Sonya managed to find the vcd and give it to me for my birthday. so what brought on the sudden interest in the books again? possibly the fact that my sister took them out to reread and the fact that i watched the vcd again.

finished math tutorial but did one only since i think i've misplaced the other previous tutorial. gah. did history outline for which i had totally no idea what i was talking about. did econs mcq. still have literature pc essay to do as well as cold war essay.

i hope i'll do them tomorrow. what can i say? essays scare me.

{-Chained to you-}

considering how i always think that having a games stall at a fun fair probably wouldn't garner much support or much profit, i was... surprised today. went to school quite early just to prepare, ended up being like the first few there, we're talking about 6.50 around there. dun ask me why. then after that waited for the balloons to come and started blowing. when we actually started the whole shift thing, there wasn't many people coming. i think it's cos it was too early in the morning yet, plus, most people head for the food in fun fairs and not games first thing. but when i went back to the stall around noon to 2, it was quite packed. but we started to run out of prizes and balloons. still, darts seem to be quite a popular game. must be the sense of accomplishment when you hear the "pop" sound.

today probably killed my handphone bill. saw all the people i wanted to see and more. crapped with yy when she finally came over. the fun fair was well, fun. but after a while, when the crowd started getting worse, i wished i had the brains to get some food before hand. didn't get anything to eat, only drank stuff. and it was so hot. didn't even mind getting wet. it dried pretty fast anyhow.

anyway, i'm glad there's the holiday come monday because i don't intend to do any work today and i have at least 2 essays due next week. i'll do them sunday, though heaven knows i'm great at procastinating. sick.

wanted to go support the basketball team in their match against SA on monday.... but the problem was that my SA friends all end lessons late. the match would have started by the time they've reached. so most prob wouldn't be going after all. i wanted to meet up with them since i haven't seen them in a long while and what fun we could have cheering for our own school sitting next to each other? =)... especially since we all don't have the time to meet for lunch or dinner or shopping etc. it would be like the time i met Benita in vj to support the soccer boys against tpjc. ( me for vj and she for tp of course). do hope that vj wins but SA's pretty good, since they were second in the nationals last year.

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